I miss you

It really makes me sad to see my friends dwindling away. Not only from me, but from God who created us. These friends of mine, i mean we've been through everything together. Im talking about good times and bad times. Times where we knew each other's darkest moments. Like how they used to struggle with suicide and drinking but God delivered them. Im talking about how God had so impacted their lives that summer that they felt like they would never go back to their old ways. Im talking about how they were so on fire for God that they felt like nothing would ever get in there way.

What's happened?

Where are they?

What happened to the days where they wore no make-up. Where we used to play hide and seek in the church. When we would stay after church alllllll day and practice drama skits and kid around with each other. What happened to the moments when we would all gather in that small room after drama practice and we would all talk about how much we loved God and were so thankful for having each other and loving what God was doing in us and through us in our youth group.

What happened to those nights after church where we would all go out to eat with each other because spending all day with each other just wasnt enough?

What happened? Where are you? Where have you gone? I miss you. My heart absolutely breaks for you and i cant stand to see you how you are now. Broken. Alone. Doing things you promised God you would never do. Why have you broken your promise? Where has your passion gone? Why did you let your fire go out? If my heart breaks for you, i can't imagine how God must feel. I'm sorry my friends have left You and gone to do things that they wanted to do. They've left the church and they've left you. I pray they come back. That they come back to you.

I wish i could go back to those innocent days where it was just us and no one else. We were unstoppable. We were in love with You. We were passionate in serving You. We would go to other churches and states ministering inYour name and we loved every bit of it. If only we could go back to those days where our only concerns were if we were going to make it to church on time.

I miss seeing there innocent faces, full of laughter. Now when we see each other, its like our past together has never happened, like our times with God wasnt there. Our times crying on each others shoulders encouraging ourselves never existed.

Abba, if this is what growing up consists of, i dont want to grow up. I dont want the people around me growing up. Our innocence wipes away and we become this person who has experienced too much and we begin to do things our own way instead of yours. We lose faith in you and we give up on ourselves and in You. God, i pray that i never lose my innocence. That i have child-like faith that doesnt die out.