Ah yes, finally! I think the answer has come! Ofcourse, i still have to pray about it, but i think i've got the answer i've been waiting for, torturing over and stressing out about! Ha!
For a while i've been feeling stretched. Stretched as in what direction i should go in. To stay? Or to go? I was in so much pain and heart ache because all i wanted to do was what God wanted me to do. I was in pain whether or not God wanted me to go away to stretch my wings, learn more or serve Him in a different way. It would've been really difficult for me to leave. (You can read my blog called "The Number 3" to see how badly i was struggling). At first i thought that in order to go to school for mission work i had to leave, but... who says that i have to leave? Why cant i do both? Why can't i just stay working in a church as a children's pastor while at the same time going to school for mission work? Why hadn't i seen it before? God has given me such an easy solution!
Why do we do that? Why do we always make things so much harder for us? We expect the solution to be a really difficult one, but sometimes they end up being really simple.
Sometimes in life God makes us wait. To sweat it out, to make us weak, to makes our knees shake. So that we won't rely on our understanding and knowledge and strength, but instead, we rely on His understanding, knowledge and strength. Joshua 1:9 says, "I command you, be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
With that being said, though we feel blindfolded and being led in a direction we have no clue where we're going, be strong and courageous and know that our Abba is watching over us, leading us in the direction He wants us to go.
I know missions work is hard work and it'll no doubt be difficult for me and definitely out of my comfort zone, but...its like a dream for me. I love to serve others and most of all i love serving God. What better way than to do mission work? Ideally, mission work for kids? Perhaps an orphanage? (Orphans have been on my heart since i was eight, i know one day that i will adopt a child for sure!) I always tell my kids to dream BIG, because God has BIG plans for us, and i think this is one of them. I know im not the greatest at building things or even being a people person (considering im pretty shy sometimes) but, that'll just be another lesson Abba will teach me.
So the solution (as of right now) i will apply to the Bible college near where i live and continue as Maigan the 21 year old Children's Pastor. A job where not all the kids are sweet little angels, but i know God has called me to be in (you can take a look at my blog called, "Destiny, fate or calling" for that story, lol). I absolutely love children, and it's such a blessing to work with them, serve them, and teach them about our loving Father and our Savior.
Lesson learned: Wait on God, and He WILL answer you.
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