So, strangely i usually only write when i know what i want to write about. But tonight, i dont know what i want to write, yet i still want to write! Am a making any sense? Do i ever? Rarely....So bear with me as i talk randomly.
So i have still been thinking a lot lately about God's plan's for me and i just recently finished a book about Heaven Is For Real. A true story about a little boy at almost the age of 4 where he is taken to the hospital because his appendix ruptured and the parents didnt find out till 5 days later. Well long story short, while the little boy was being operated on he was taken to heaven, not because he had died, but because God had a plan for him and wanted him to see heaven. Also, He allowed him to go to heaven, i believe, because the little boy was so scared for his life. Anyways, the boy experiences Heaven, saw the throne of God, saw Jesus, Mary, Gabriel, John the Baptist, his grandfather, and even his miscarried sister! It was absolutely amazing how this kid talked to his dad about it. He talked about it so nonchalant, so matter-of-fact, like heaven is for real. Now ofcourse, if your thinking, "How did this 4 year old boy write this story?" Well duh! He didn't, his dad did!
Over the course of time the boy would just randomly talk about Heaven or Jesus and about how beautiful it was. It really got me thinking. Like how great God truly and really is. How much He truly and really cares for us so passionately. It seriously got me thinking about how real He is. How personal He is. How so one-to-one He is. He desires to be a part of our life in a grand way and all we have to do is allow Him!
Which makes me think, how self-centered am i? I only think about myself and i have failed to realize that Jesus is with me wherever i go. Now, i know i've said and heard that a million times, "God is with you wherever you go. He's always there, watching what you're watching, listening to what you're listening to, going where you're going." But now, my eyes have truly and really been opened to the fact that...God really is with me wherever i go.
I want to do everything i possibly can in order to please Him. I want to do His work and go where He wants me to go and do what He wants me to do. Am i making Him smile? Am i pleasing Him? Is He proud to have me as a daughter? I should really hope so, but i'm not perfect. I often fail to put Him absolutely first in my life and i have made mistake after mistake after mistake. And it's not like they're different mistakes, its usually the same mistake! Why is that? Why do we always do that? Make the same mistake over and over again? But the beautiful thing about it all is that Jesus is always forgiving them. Each and every mistake. Repeatedly. I love that. I love how no matter how many times we fail, he's always there to pick us up and dust us off and set us on our feet again. And often enough, we don't even say a "thank you". How selfish we are. How ungrateful. But how precious is it to know that even though we take things for granted, he still tenderly cares for us and loves us to the very core. It's so humbling. It humbles me to know that even though i don't always make the right decisions, he's always there for me to clean up the messes and help me make the right choices.
I just don't understand how other's don't see this. How can other's not have hope in Jesus? If you don't have hope in Jesus, who else is there to hope in? "Hope that is seen is no hope at all". That's what faith and hope is all about.
After reading Heaven Is For Real, it opened my eyes to see that i shouldn't be selfish and keep Christ to myself, i need to tell others about him! It's my job! It also taught me how special it is to be a Children's Pastor. Think about it, i have the honor and privilege to teach children about Jesus. And when i get to Heaven, i'll have the blessing to embrace those children and walk with them in streets of gold...in the presence of God! How beautiful will that day be! I can't wait!
There is no doubt that Heaven truly is for real.
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