Maturity and Childish things :3

I honestly don't expect anyone to read this, and honestly, i don't really care. And i don't mean to be rude by saying that, it's just that the reason why i'm making a blog is so that i can be able to write out my life. It's easy for me to forget things, and most of the times it's on purpose. I have this thing where i'll repress my feelings and not share it with anyone except God alone, and until i finally crack, will i talk about something that's really bothering me.

But what's funny though is that i'm a pretty honest person. If only you'll ask me i'll tell you anything and everything, even if i know my last statement may have gone a little too far. I'll repress my feelings until someone approaches me about what's wrong.

Honesty is best and i believe that anything you say, even if it was a joke there's always some truth in it. If there's one thing i don't like- its liars or people who make up excuses. I really can't stand those sorts of people. I love them, but please, if you lie over something ridiculous your respect points from me have just gone down :/

My life isn't all exciting, i see the same people, do about the same thing everyday, go the same places all the time. I'm in a routine, a comfort zone.

I hate routines and I hate comfort zones :S

I love surprises and not knowing what's next. I love traveling and getting out of my comfort zone. I like doing new things and experiencing something i'm not all comfortable with. Even with that being said, i don't consider myself as some adventurer or dare devil. Sure, i went to Africa to do a Kids Crusade with 2 months notice,

 and yes i did go to Los Angeles with a friend just to see a bunch of famous Korean singers and didn't understand the language, but other than that, i don't necessarily call my self an adventurer. I don't like doing things that will get me in trouble or make me feel like i'm a bad person. I just like doing things spontaneously and living life like everyday's a chance to do something different. So what? Who cares if i want to take a train ride for 3 days across america and come right back around? Sounds fun to me! And i plan on doing it, too! Others might ask what's the point of taking a train for three days and turning right back around, but honestly, how fun would it be? Being able to see everything fly right past you as you just sit there listening to the chug of the train. And some might ask why in the world would i choose a train when we have airplanes? Been there. Done that. The sky is beautiful, but so is the earth, right? I want to see America even in the littlest of nooks and crannies. Trains are different, awkward, and random. I like that. In fact, i'm sorta like that.

 Different. Awkward. Random. I like it. Why would i want to be like everyone else?  I'm confident in knowing that all i have to worry about is whether God likes me or not. And i know He not only likes me, but He is so deeply in love with me that i can't even understand it. Whether you believe in God or not, He is deeply in love with you too! We all make mistakes and it's through our mistakes do we find out who God is, cause He corrects them!

I'm 21 and young. I like cute things, what's wrong with that? I like childish things, i laugh at childish things, i buy childish things, is that ok? Does that make me immature? Mmm...ok maybe a little bit but i honestly am mature, i like to think that i have a balance of maturity and immaturity. If all i was was 21 and boring, i'd be...well....boring. I like pink, i like hearts, i like hello kitty. I don't like scary things, but they don't make me afraid, that's just childish (ha!).

I think my iPhone (and yes, its true, it will change your life) describes me perfectly. My phone has everything i need on it. I like to watch and read the news a lot, and so i have a few news apps. It has my calendar with my schedules and activities on it, it has my emails on it for me to work on and check even when i'm not near a computer, it has the weather app on it, and even a GPS on it (i still get lost even with the GPS). Even with all that boring and "grown up" app stuff on it, my cover for my phone is hot pink with a cute chubby bear with big blue glasses on it with a heart plastered in the middle of its tummy with the words "HUG ME" written on the bottom of it. Cute, just darling, right?

Even though i can be pretty mature, i'm still childish in some ways. I've come to the conclusion that that's ok, childish things make people laugh and smile, and who wouldn't like to laugh and smile?

If anyone reads this, i'd be surprised.

And i like surprises.

:)
-mai